I always believed that I could help him. I was his girlfriend, he loved me, he would do anything for me. Or so I thought. As soon as I found out about his problem I asked him to get help, those were the conditions he had to meet for me to stay with him. I went online and found a counsellor who dealt with gambling problems and he booked an appointment. I (foolishly) thought this was it. This was the end to this problem, he would get over his addiction, we would move on with our lives, maybe we would even be a stronger and closer couple after this is over. Unfortunately, after two sessions he no longer bothered to go, deeming it a “waste of time”.
I would love to blame him completely for the fact that the counselling didn’t help. He had given up when he had barely started to face up to his problem, he said the counsellor had pretty much said there wasn’t a lot she could do to help. I’m no expert but i’m sure a professional in this area would not have said anything along those lines. The fact is I am just as responsible as him for it not working out. If i’m honest, looking back at his habit for telling lies, it’s entirely possible that he never went at all. I should have gone with him and made sure he attended his sessions but I was naive and didn’t believe that him not turning up was even a possibility. I had my head in the clouds, he was going to go to his sessions, he was going to get better and that would be the end of it. I would ask how it went but I would accept “it was OK” as an answer and the subject would be swiftly changed. My own desire for this to be an easy fix blinded me and it probably alienated me from him even further.
Naivety, selfishless, ignorance, desperation. Both of us were guilty of it. Maybe counselling just wasn’t the answer to this problem, it doesn’t work for everyone and doesn’t solve every problem. Or perhaps he didn’t bother going, or didn’t make any effort at the sessions to work towards a solution. Could it be that it was my fault for not being more supportive or insistent that he make a go of getting help? There is no clear answer to why it didn’t work but I will always wonder what could have been different and whether this was a lost cause from day one.